1. The FORMULA in Action

1. The FORMULA in Action

When I was fourteen I decided to make a mosaic out of the stones I’d collected from the Lake Michigan beach near us. My dad took me to the lumber yard to get Elmer’s Glue and a handy-panel and I began sorting them on the back patio. I drew a rough design and spent hours for several days creating this rambling picture that may somehow capture who I was then.

To this day I use a similar crafting method, but now I can use the FORMULA concepts and Eric Berne’s intuitive approach to help me. Together they allow me to sort out my interior reactions along with my pebbles. I offer this example to illustrate how your Parent-Child dynamic operates in a simple situation before you encounter more complex ones in the following posts.

To make a mosaic my Adult and Child first prepare the materials and decide on the size and shape of the project. Then my Adult directs me to:

  1. Collect all the stones needed for the design.
  2. Sort them into piles of similar types and choose which to use.
  3. Design each section in detail and set the stones, trying different arrangements until the whole picture comes together.
  4. Keep my Critical Parent from ruining the experience by telling me to worry about other tasks and my Indulgent Parent from letting me craft so long that I neglect those.
  5. Balance my Child’s needs for fun and rest with the need to work on the project for many hours.

The Mental Fitness FORMULA can help you manage a process like this well. Your Adult plans and designs things with input from your sensing and feeling Child. Your Parent parts express their view, and their beliefs. My Critical Parent may tell me I’m wasting my time (Belief #3, you’re failing to meet a standard you’ve set). In recent years when I saw the amazing mosaics on Pinterest, my Critical Parent suggested that I must equal or surpass their skill or it would be stupid to continue (Belief #2 ). If my Child wants to keep playing when I need to stop and do chores, my Indulgent Parent may take its side. Citing Belief #11, it could suggest that I’m special because I usually work hard and so it’s okay to neglect things to have fun. Kept on the edge of fight-or-flight, my Child can be left confused and conflicted about enjoying the “fun” project. Full disclosure, I don’t make a mosaic very often.

My Adult must balance all three of these inner voices and guide me to take the best course for the short- and long-run. I often feel tension in my gut when I take very long at anything for simple pleasure. The FORMULA only takes me so far in the short run. I’m wired to be more anxious generally, as a person in the group Elaine Aron calls “Highly Sensitive.*” I also inherited a family trait of impulsive intensity that often gets me committed in too many directions.

My toxic experience as a child instilled a drive to help others not endure what my family had to suffer. My Adult has consistently chosen to support a Critical Parent that will keep me on track for this. I always know I could choose differently, but my purpose-driven life in the long-run brings me joy and satisfaction. We all differ in what tempts our Child to push us too far at times or sometimes leaves our Child neglected. The discipline of Mental Fitness can help you manage and benefit from whatever inheritance and formative experience you bring to your life.

When I keep the FORMULA in mind, my Adult helps me stay more relaxed and healthy in simple, low-stress situations like crafting a mosaic. Consistent practice has prepared me to engage effectively and more comfortably in more demanding and potentially triggering situations. The process remains the same, but following my purpose, the triggers involve the Critical and Indulgent Parents of others which can drag in my own. For example, my Child gets upset when someone is unfair to me or anyone else and prods me to say or do something. My two Parents often disagree about the best response. Through all this my Adult must quickly guide me to respond to others with consideration for what their Parent and Child reactions might be.

Your Adult has to be skilled and quick to deal with your inner world or it won’t navigate others’ behavior well. Like driving a car in fast, heavy traffic, you need the smoothly functioning automatic reactions that only occur when you’ve gotten lots of practice on easier roads first. Gradually your skills will grow and you’ll find that you actually enjoy the challenge of more complex situations, once you trust that you can handle them well.

*Elaine Aron, hsperson.com

2. Pineapple Upside-Down Cake and Mental Fitness

2. Pineapple Upside-Down Cake and Mental Fitness

How could these two possibly come together? The struggle in your mind that prevents mental fitness consists of clashing brain elements. To bring them into harmony you have to know what they are and how to manage them. Here’s where pineapple upside-down cake comes in.

It’s after the holidays the second year of the Covid 19 pandemic and my Child has sneaked more fattening food than usual. Relatives’ Indulgent Parents joined with my own, allowing my Child to eat lots of things like pineapple upside-down cake. This year even my usually 12 pound dachshund, Dixie, gained a pound. Dixie doesn’t mind her rounder tummy, but I object to mine and I recall the fights I lost in my own head.

I remember a time when my inner-world supported my efforts to maintain a healthy diet. The impact of being ill with an especially toxic flu virus in 2018 and previous viruses since I was forty-seven left me with a damaged gut, many allergies and a foggy brain. To recover I sought help with functional medicine providers and followed their diet and supplement programs. While I worked for my health, I lost some weight and had no trouble resisting cake and ice cream.

My Child didn’t argue much because she was scared about what had happened to me. The idea of getting really sick again kept her on the edge of fight-or-flight. My Indulgent Parent focused on helping me find new ways to play with the healthy recipes my Adult discovered online. My Critical Parent kept after me about my failing to exercise as I was advised to do, warning my Child that she should stop watching so many cooking shows and get off the couch. I gradually managed to fend off Belief #4, that if something threatening (another viral attack) might happen, it’s helpful to worry about it frequently.

By the holidays this year I was feeling well! I decided I’d try eating dairy products again and really got into ice cream and yogurt which I’d really missed. I ate gluten-free desserts and just too many snacks. My Indulgent Parent pushed Belief #11 my way: If you’re special in some way you’re entitled to recognition and an easier path. I didn’t care about recognition, but I was ready for that easier path. I felt special because I’d worked so hard for years, depriving myself of favorite foods and often feeling hungry, things only a special person would do.

Self-pity swept over my Child instead of the pride she’d had over what she’d helped to accomplish in restoring my health. My Indulgent Parent was crushing my Critical Parent, so my Adult offered a compromise. Let’s just eat a little ice cream and a few sweet snacks. You know what happened next. Ever trying to keep the peace, my Adult kept looking for information to help find new ways to motivate internal cooperation.

One day YouTube played a video where Erica Sonnenburg explained in persuasive detail how the gut works against sustained diet changes.* It turns out that the “microbiome” that inhabits our gut will switch overnight when we change our diet for the better. And as we persist in our new diet, it will remain improved for a while. But it retains the memory of previous indulgences and will in time slide back in to our previous, less healthy but enticing diet.

So my Indulgent Parent cried, it’s not all my Child’s fault! We really are special if we can keep this up indefinitely with all the temptation around us, along with the corrupting influence of our own gut. Yes, it often helps to think of myself as more than one person! Now my Adult I realizes that as long as I feel healthy, the only motivation to keep up my new diet is how I look, and that’s not enough. I like my appearance better at this weight than with the extra twenty pounds I had for several years. It would be inconvenient and costly to buy larger clothes again. But I didn’t really feel unattractive with that extra weight, I felt cozier. And I enjoy shopping.

To make matters worse, my Critical Parent disapproves of focusing too much on such things. She often embraces Belief #3 that I deserve to be blamed and punished if I don’t meet the standard she sets. My Adult allows her to hold the standard that I should concern myself with the needs of others and my spiritual journey instead. My Adult works continually to help balance her input and I welcome the challenge to do as she expects. It’s a major source of meaning in my life. But just one extra pound? One piece of cake?

The end of the story about my diet is in the future! But I know what I’m dealing with here and so my Adult can remind me of self-talk that’s helped me settle my inner conflict about this before:

  • You have to stop somewhere with weight gain, so why not stop while you can still fit into your present wardrobe?
  • Do you really want to go through the past several years of health problems again and the weight merry-go-round? That’s what you’ve learned to expect.
  • Let’s find other ways to indulge our Child that don’t have the side effects that poor diet does!

A wise friend once told me that she finally stopped smoking because she got sick of quitting. Maybe that’s what I’ll do: stop repeating the unpleasant process of quitting my healthy diet. I’ll put that into my Wise Parent’s chest of wise quotes, closer to the top.

 

*Justin & Erica Sonnenburg, The Good Gut: Taking Control of Your Weight, Your Mood, and Your Long-Term Health. (New York, Penguin Books 2015)

6. Divide and Conquer

6. Divide and Conquer

Scaffold for Mental Fitness

One day I decided that I should sort out for myself and my readers just how the FORMULA and the Adult-Parent-Child systems inter-connect and relate to Mental Fitness issues. I created the “Scaffold” here to capture this for us. In previous posts I’ve illustrated how these systems can combine by describing how I used them to combat fight-or-flight reactions in a few situations. Following the list of 12 Toxic Beliefs in the website discussion of the FORMULA, I noted that usually the first half of the beliefs belong to the Critical Parent and the next, to the Indulgent Parent. Then in Post #2 I admitted that I often think of myself as “we” instead of “I.”

In the scaffold drawing you can see arrows between the Adult-Parent-Child parts denoting how they influence each other. For you who like to have things sorted this way, I hope the scaffold helps. The entire scaffold will be more relevant in future posts. For now it might give you an overview for reference. For those who prefer a more intuitive approach, let me describe how I came to see my mind as multiple parts and why I find it helpful to divide it this way.

After my divorce in the 1970s I had to fend off waves of anxiety and dread that threatened to overwhelm me. I discovered that if my Adult could separate itself from my warring and confused Child and Parent parts, I could get my feet back on the ground. My own take on Eric Berne’s avatars (see ….) allowed me to function as a parent and graduate student despite frequent severe insomnia and panic attacks.

The fact that I could recognize and correct my toxic beliefs on my own was very reassuring and stabilizing. When negative feelings threatened to take over, I decided to use the reminder phrase, “Divide and conquer” to shove them aside. This gave my Adult the space to start sorting them out. My experiences as a mother, babysitter and teacher gave me a short-cut for how to comfort and reassure my own inner frightened or angry Child.

To sort out my Parent parts, I related each parent to half the beliefs and created reminder phrases for my Adult to use when they were too disruptive. “Stop exaggerating; none of this will kill us!” for my Critical Parent and “You’re just setting us up for future grief and we (Adult & Child) know it!” for my Indulgent Parent. These phrases respond to the basic message expressed through each Parent’s beliefs. They provided the space for my Adult to step in and revise any specific Child Brain Habits or Toxic Beliefs involved. “Divide and conquer!” worked so well that I’ve used it ever since.

7. How to Reduce your Critical Parent’s Power

7. How to Reduce your Critical Parent’s Power

It seems to be easy for people to recognize their Critical Parent. When it presses it’s Toxic Beliefs on you, you feel it right away with a tightening gut or fists, flushed face, mental sense of being overwhelmed, prickling on the back of your neck or other body fight-or-flight reactions. Here’s an example of how your Adult and Wise Parent can limit its impact and keep you calm.

Ann Kelly, pictured above in her cozy pottery studio, demonstrates as a teacher the effects of not subscribing to Belief #3. This belief holds that when people, including yourself, don’t meet some standard you’ve set, they must be blamed and/or punished. In her studio, after I accidentally stained her new gray carpet with fine red clay, she had every right to chastise me. Instead, she provided a towel to put below my table and assured me that the stain might come out with a thorough cleaning. I felt awful, but without the clutch in my gut I would have had in my younger years, partly due to her kindness, and partly due to my work to reduce the power of belief #3.

What happens in your particular body when you’ve made a mistake that hurts someone else? That’s your Adult’s signal to step in and assure your Child that your life is not at stake. Remember, your body can’t help with complex problems. It’s only designed to save your life, not your friendships or your reputation. Ann helped reassure me with her kind response, but you can’t count on others to help you. Your Adult must quickly jump in to keep your Child from fight-or-flight .

How did I teach my stomach to butt out? First, I’d clutch in some situations and afterwards review what went on with my Parent and Child for that to happen. I’d see that belief #3 in some form was in play. My Critical Parent would scold my Child, saying, “How dare you be so careless when such a generous and kind woman is helping you?” And then my Child would tell itself, “I can’t stand it that I’m such a screw-up!” That would trigger my fight-or-flight response, the stomach clutch. You may be thinking, that’s not really fleeing or fighting. Herbert Benson, who studied this for much of his life, noted that when we don’t go actively into fight-or-flight, our body just stews in a toxic funk with our reaction. Benson says our bodies would be healthier if we did run away or strike out.

So instead of stewing with my guts in a knot after I stained Ann’s carpet, I felt a milder upset in my body and my Adult wasn’t overwhelmed by toxic fight-or-flight chemistry. After many years of work to manage the impact of belief #3, my Adult had built me a Wise Parent, who quickly offered reassuring comments for my Child. They went like this: “You know you always have trouble with this kind of situation and it doesn’t help to get all upset. You forgive others who harm you and you must forgive yourself too. You’re just human and you can’t help making mistakes.”

If Ann had joined my Critical Parent to scold my Child, my Wise Parent have added this: “You know how much you always want others’ approval (Belief #1), but you can’t always have it, especially if you create problems for them. They may still subscribe to Belief #3, but you don’t have to join them. Stay calm so our Adult can focus on solving the problem.” I’m happy to report that it’s taken a long time, but this Wise Parent self-talk is now more powerful than my Critical Parent’s and my gut doesn’t clutch so badly unless a car is coming at me down the road.

After a mistake one day a few years ago, my Wise Parent  coined a reminder phrase to summarize my revision of Belief #3 and help my Adult  jump in quickly: “I never deserve to feel that bad.” I had to evaluate whether I could really believe this: “Would I ever want another well-meaning person to feel that bad? No. Do I try to consider the other person most of the time? Yes. Do I demand that others be perfectly considerate of me? No. So I can give myself a break.” And just for the record, I did manage to get the stain out of Ann’s carpetJ

Part I, chapters 3 and 4 of Claim Your Own Mental Fitness describe this process in more detail and for all Twelve Toxic Beliefs. How this applies for other fight-or flight responses, like anxiety, cravings, anger, grief or depression is described in Part II. How to apply this in other situations with people like friends, co-workers, relatives, marriage partners or kids is covered in Part III. When you’ve mastered this process for both your inner-world fight-or-flight reactions and with your social contacts, you will enjoy true mental fitness and the inner peace it brings.

*Herbert Benson with Miriam Z. Klipper, The Relaxation Response, 1992.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

11. Black & White Thinking Intensifies Toxic Beliefs

11. Black & White Thinking Intensifies Toxic Beliefs

First we’ll look at black & white thinking, the simplest and easiest Child Brain Habit to defuse. It prompts you to automatically sort all you see, hear and feel into polarities: black or white, right or wrong, loving or rejecting, trustworthy or unreliable, bad or good, okay or not okay, etc.  As you follow this discussion, you’ll notice that this habit operates in different directions, when people use it for themselves and when it impacts how they relate to others. .

Let’s look at the example of three-year-old “Sherry,”* who was brought in for counseling after she had tried to throw herself out of the family’s moving car three times. Sherry’s parents had divorced six months earlier and claimed to get along pretty well. However, Sherry felt that she had to choose between them, and that was devastating for her.  Relying on her black & white approach, she felt pressed to decide which parent was good and which one was bad. It seemed that no amount of reassurance could help her understand that she didn’t have to choose. I struggled with how I could reach her three-year-old mind to guide her out of this black-and-white trap.

Sherry always came dressed in pink and said it was her very favorite color. I asked her if she would change her mind and stop loving pink if her mom, dad or some of their friends didn’t like pink. Thoughtfully, she shook her head “no” as she considered this. I said the same goes for her feeling about each of her parents; she can love both of them, even if someone else doesn’t. She was able to use this pink bridge to overcome, at least for this problem, her habit of seeing things in black & white with no other options.

This polarized way of sorting experience can prevail throughout your life. But once your brain matures, you’re capable of managing this tendency on your own. Your Adult must monitor for this habit along with the other triggers for fight-or-flight. You wouldn’t flee by jumping out into traffic, but even in less disturbing situations than Sherry’s, black & white thinking can leave you distressed.

Note how this either-or view can intensify each of the first three Toxic Beliefs: Belief #1, If I don’t have x’s approval, I’ll be devastated. Belief #2, If I don’t get this (promotion, recognition) I’m a failure. Belief #3, If I don’t get this done, I’m bad (irresponsible, selfish, careless) and I deserve to have people blame and punish me. The habit affects how you believe others see you and how you see yourself. You’ll also tend to apply it when you see another person make a mistake and judge her same way you judge yourself, or worse.

The Child in the person you judge or your own Child might trigger fight-or-flight by thinking, that’s unfair, I can’t take this, or similar phrases and leave one of you very upset. Sherry felt that if she had to find one of her parents bad, selfish, weak or uncaring it was unbearable and she sought flight. Her black & white thinking intensified how she interpreted her toxic beliefs and it can do that with yours as well. Once your Adult can recognize a brain habit’s influence, it can reduce its impact, making your toxic beliefs more open to revision.

When you recognize that someone else may be caught up in black & white thinking, your Adult can avoid joining them. If it’s one of your friends, you may be able to invite them to take a break and cool off before they continue the conversation. This is an easy habit to shut down. Just remind them of some exceptions that illustrate the gray areas. For example, if someone says, “I just don’t trust him,” suggest that they might be able to trust him to be on time, or pay his bill at lunch, even if he is less than discreet. Help him see that trust isn’t an either-or condition; it’s multi-faceted. The same goes for any other polarized view.

You must avoid feeling stupid (as opposed to wise) when you see that you’ve backed yourself, or someone else, into a corner with this inherited way of thinking. It’s not your fault that once upon a time our ancestors needed to react this way to survive. They may not have had the time to consider any other options. Your Adult can begin to find and use Wise Parent reminder phrases to help you cut through a brain habit’s influence: There’s no immediate threat, I can take my time to check out my options: There’s no tiger in sight, I can wait and think about this. And a brief word for your Child, like, We’re safe, no worries.

*All names in these post stories are fictional.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

13. Personalizing Spawns Jealousy, Envy and Hate

13. Personalizing Spawns Jealousy, Envy and Hate

Toxic belief #2, that you must surpass others in at least one area to be worthwhile, is also fueled by personalizing. Consider sibling rivalry or even the power struggles within a community. It seems to be wired-in for humans to feel threatened when someone in their own group exceeds their accomplishments. Even though they can usually accept that someone elsewhere in the world might exceed their expertise, they can really hate and envy someone nearby who does it. This suggests that in our distant past it was life-threatening if someone in our community performed better at something which we did well. Maybe in those times there were life-or-death consequences for the loser. In war and work situations today, losing our position can still be devastating if not deadly.

Toxic Belief #2 causes envy and jealousy and reduces people’s ability to cooperate in their endeavors. I doubt you can ever stop feeling a twinge of this at times because it’s probably wired-in. To revise it your Adult needs to step back from the situation and stop taking any of it personally. Instead, it needs to guide your Parent parts to recognize that for most people today, it’s not necessary to outperform others. If someone else gets the job or recognition you’d hoped and worked for, you have other groups you can join and/or many other ways you can contribute.

Toxic Belief #7 that it’s unbearable when you work hard for something and you don’t get it, often accompanies Belief #2 when you personalize what happens. For this my Wise Parent has adopted the phrase, Reality is least painful when you face it quickly. It’s a well-known fact that many situations reward very few of those who work hard to contribute, whether it’s business, sports, entertainment or the arts. It’s also true that often people who don’t seem to deserve the prize get it. We can choose not to take any of this personally; in reality, most often it’s our lot as human beings not to accomplish all we attempt, sooner or later, no matter what we do.

From the start it’s wise for your Adult to help balance Parent expectations and develop achievable goals. You should never “put all your eggs in one basket.” You always need Plans B, C and D. It’s usually a waste of energy and brings you no peace if you hate and treat badly those who make the decisions or those who win that coveted opportunity, even when they cheat. Instead ask yourself, “What do I actually need to have a satisfying life? Keep measuring your goals against that and remain flexible, as you develop the alternate plans that can lead to the best life for you and those you love. Your Adult can revise both Beliefs #2 and #7 this way: I’m a unique and valuable person. Only I can know and take charge of deciding what will allow me to express the best that I have to offer and enjoy my life.

Personalizing also drives human behavior in many other kinds of situations. People who have special emotional challenges, like paranoia, social anxiety, depression and unresolved trauma have to work harder to keep from engaging in this. Their Adult must be much more vigilant to recognize when personalizing starts and have ready some powerful reminder phrases to keep shutting it down. First they should consider that maybe the offensive behavior didn’t have much to do with them.

This gives their Adult emotional space to tackle their Parents’ intense resistance to any change in the protective system of toxic beliefs that they’ve created. This Parental rigidity occurs when people’s minds are either wired or damaged-by-experience to have an extremely vulnerable Child. When your Child doesn’t feel basically safe, it needs more reassurance and protection to keep out of fight-or-flight responses. In a vicious circle, the more it experiences fight-or-flight, the less safe it feels, and the more inappropriate “protective” toxic beliefs your Parents will press on you.

To reassure your Child, your Adult must prevent Parental triggering, but this gets more difficult the longer the pattern has gone on. Getting support from a counselor individually and then often in a group can help break these patterns and sustain your revised beliefs. Medication can be helpful and not lead to addiction, if it’s administered appropriately by a doctor who respects the value of psychotherapy and a client’s own wish to regain control. The social impact when whole groups join together to embrace personalization and the toxic beliefs it supports will be discussed in future posts.

15. Overgeneralizing and Truth

15. Overgeneralizing and Truth

Feliciana Netamba cares for her two children at their home in the Cacilhas village near Huambo, Angola, where the MENTOR Initiative is working to help control malaria. Photo by Mike DuBose, United Methodist News Service.

Whether you generalize or overgeneralize, how can you be sure you’re not creating a “false world” for yourself? I learned the hard way that reality is much easier to deal with if you don’t break away from it too long. As noted in the previous post, it’s not possible to avoid generalizing. Overgeneralization only happens when you forget that you’ve stepped off into the unknown and instead believe you’re walking on the solid ground of reality and truth.

When your Parent and Child parts buy into what should be tentative conclusions, or guesses, they move away from the truth about a situation. Overgeneralizing words like always, never, all, everyone or no one, only and assume should signal your Adult into quick action. Here’s how overgeneralizing ignites fight-or-flight for a few beliefs: Belief #7 is in effect when you tell yourself that if you work long and hard, it will always lead to the success you wanted. Belief # 5 discourages you from trying when you think you can never overcome the disadvantages of your past. Beliefs # 2 and 3 can trigger intense jealousy if someone else outperforms you in an area where you assume you’ll always come out ahead. Belief # 8 may encourage you to quit looking for your best path because you think that happiness is only and always just what life gives you.

To reduce fight-or flight reactions to always and never overgeneralizing in your toxic beliefs, your Adult must offer Wise Parent phrases like: I’m just guessing about this, but this is what I think now; or from what I know about it, this may work. It’s often best to say, until I get more information, I can’t evaluate this. Your Wise Parent is developed as you revise toxic beliefs and gain wisdom from others. It acts like a bank from which your Adult can withdraw phrases to revise persistent toxic beliefs and quiet fight-or-flight responding.

The best example of humans coming together to manage overgeneralization may be found in the scientific method. It’s designed to prevent people from concluding that things are true based on just a few examples. Testimonials from individuals make the news, but they can’t offer reliable information about most people. Scientists publish articles where they detail how they followed the scientific method in their work. These allow anyone to judge whether their conclusions are close to being true. Here are some steps that the scientific method offers to help you avoid living in a false world:

  1. When a study is reported it must disclose who funded it. This allows the reader to consider how it might have been biased in favor of the funding group or groups.
  2. Scientists must define how they’ve selected the participants. Random sampling is the goal for initial selection and important at every step. If this isn’t done, the results can’t be generalized to groups containing a different type of person (gender, age, experience, level of health, ethnic or racial group, etc.)   For years all research on breast cancer was done with men, because women’s hormone changes made study more difficult in them. Scientists who conducted these were overgeneralizing if they that the results of a treatment would work the same for women generally as for the men in their studies. Often this did occur.
  3. There must be a large enough group of people studied for any answers to be considered even partially true. Scientists describe the probability that their findings are true in percentages.
  4. When large, well-run studies by several respected groups around the world come up with the same results, you can have the most confidence that their findings can be generalized to people in general. After just one study, it’s common for other researchers to run similar studies and find different results. Even one factor that’s different, like reliance on participants from England instead of Kenya, can change the outcome. They’d be overgeneralizing if they claimed that their results would be true beyond England for some issues.

How do scientists guard against overgeneralizing? They document how they perform every step of their studies and encourage others to try to duplicate their work. Because it’s impossible to provide conditions like perfect random sampling, honest researchers will share the limits of how their work can be generalized. Those who do overgeneralize lose the respect and trust of other scientists and their funding. They hurt the progress of science because large research studies are expensive and require the committed efforts of many people, often over many years. In medicine and other areas of research this can be devastating.

Researchers who won’t follow the rules and lie about it may subscribe to Indulgent Parent Belief # 12: If you’re very clever, you can find shortcuts around the frustrating rules in our society. They don’t get away with it because other studies will prove their claims to be false. In medicine they waste precious time when new treatments are badly needed. If their work is overgeneralized, they may harm many people. An example of this is when doctors choose to overgeneralize by prescribing medicine that hasn’t been proven effective or safe for people outside the group that’s been studied.

How can your Adult sift through all the information you receive to identify what’s most likely to be true? Watch for how a scientist or doctor describes it. Do they use the words always or never? Do they refer to reliable sources for their information? Are they respected among other scientists in their field who know the quality of their work? Do they call their findings true or most likely true (which is more accurate) at a certain percentage? Is your doctor recommended by another respected doctor who knows her work? If not, you risk joining the false world of overgeneralization with all the risks it poses.

16. Brain Differences and Fight-or-Flight

16. Brain Differences and Fight-or-Flight

This little stone family invites you to take a big leap into wiser Adult coping. You can’t guess what these rock people’s brains might be like, can you?  How would you cope with a co-worker who looked like these one-eyed stones?  You could suspend a few toxic beliefs for a while. Would you get upset if he didn’t approve of something you did? Would you compare your performance to his? Would you blame him or yourself if you had communication or cooperation problems?

Many toxic beliefs assume that we humans all share similar capabilities. Improved brain imaging techniques are revealing how different human brains actually can be.  It’s your Adult’s job to read situations accurately, taking brain differences into account, as you interact with others. How might your own brain differ in some ways that make it harder or easier for your Adult? Everyone’s Adult must manage toxic beliefs, Child ranting and archaic brain habits like black-and-white thinking to reduce fight-or-flight reactions. But for many people it’s more difficult, or even impossible for them to do all this reliably.

These people are wired to have more overwhelming fight-or-flight challenges. If you’re in this group you may react more intensely and quickly than most people. You may have more trouble getting your Adult to focus or observe your inner being. You may not be able to interpret what’s happening in a situation. You may not be able to remember what others say or what you’ve just read. You may not be able to guess from another person’s body language and tone of voice how they’re feeling. These problems interfere with Adult self-management, no matter how hard a person tries to master mental fitness skills. Your Adult needs to recognize this to keep you out of frequent, defensive fight-or-flight. It must also realize that others may need compassion when their behavior is difficult. They may be doing the best that they can.

People don’t have to look like one-eyed stones to deserve a thoughtful, Adult approach. Belief #3, that people (including you) who don’t meet a set standard should be blamed or punished, is not helpful for this. An ADHD child who disrupts a classroom requires extra guidance and perhaps medication. Criticizing his parents and punishing him just arouses their fight-or-flight reactions, which interfere with their Adult problem-solving abilities. When we’re angry with others, our own Adult abilities suffer as well. Whether it’s a boss who feels compelled to micro-manage her team or an engineer who irritates those around him with his lack of sensitivity, Adult problem-solving is required for solutions. Blaming people who can’t regulate themselves is understandable, but managing them to protect others and the productivity of a group is more humane and helpful.

Part II, Chapter 1 of my book offers an overview of the most common brain differences that make it harder to keep your Adult in charge, along with references for further study. These differences include Elaine Aron’s Highly Sensitive Person trait, described with a self-test at her website, www.hsperson.com, Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), including associated hyperactivity and learning disabilities, Borderline, Schizoid, Anti-social and related personality disorders, Bipolar Disorder and autism spectrum disorders. Future posts will discuss examples of how some of these operate to make fight-or-flight harder to manage.

17. Shelter for Your Uniqueness

17. Shelter for Your Uniqueness

To protect yourself from hurt and anger over any brain differences that make it harder for your Adult, you must build shelter into your Wise Parent. You can extend it to others as well. As noted in Post # 16, there are several wired-in conditions that can make you feel like you’ll never fit in to our overwhelming life here on planet earth. The old philosopher’s advice, “Know thyself,” has lots of resonance here.

As an example I’ll share how I’ve worked to manage and accept my very high level of Elaine Aron’s Sensory Processing Sensitivity Trait,*which I’ve always had to work hard to manage. When I read her first book, The Highly Sensitive Person, in 1997, I recognized many aspects of myself in her pages about HSPs. When I finished it, I said to myself, “another fitting title would be, ‘The Highly Irritable and Cranky Person.’” I could recall, as early as age ten, struggling to be calmer, less quickly annoyed, and less judgmental with others than came easily to me. I didn’t want to be like my angry, intolerant mother, who was no-doubt also an HSP, along with her other, more painful problems.

When I could walk on the beach or spend quiet time with a friend or two, I was very peaceful. I even began to write poetry about the beautiful Indiana Dunes where I lived. HSPs tend to have a special appreciation for nature and beauty; it helps compensate for our more tiresome traits. You’ll notice that the picture above features the same family as the one in post #16, but the stone people now have a sheltering branch to comfort them. When we HSPs and others with other challenging brain differences identify how our brains operate, our Adult must seek environments where we can thrive.

Our Wise Parent must revise Critical Parent messages that if we don’t fit in, we’re failing socially or in our jobs. It must also revise Indulgent Parent messages that would have us withdraw in self-pity and greatly limit our lives and happiness. No, we can’t expect others to recognize on their own that we can’t always handle what they can in a situation. Anyone who goes to an intense movie with me for the first time, gets to listen to why I had to leave in the middle to regroup and calm myself.

My friends accept this about me; I must accept that some people will fault me for it, because they can’t understand it. Then I must provide an internal sheltering branch, to feel good about myself anyway. A client I knew who had Attention Deficit Disorder, but whose wife was constantly angry with his slip-ups, told me that when he learned he had ADD, “I realized I wasn’t an asshole, I just had ADD.” He worked hard to compensate, but he learned to do this too late for his wife.

We HSP’s can be anything but sensitive to others  if we don’t find the sheltering branches we need to help keep us out of fight-or-flight. We can be highly irritable and cranky if we’re over-tired, badly nourished, overwhelmed by noise, scents or light. I’ve always had to remove the tags in the necks of my clothes. We need stronger-than-average Adults to cope well socially, to ensure that, in my words “we’re fit for human habitation.” Because we’re also very conscientious, we can feel terrible for our lapses in empathy or self-control.

I’ve polled many of my hundreds of HSP clients about how they reacted to their junior high social experience. Many said that they never really tried again to participate in a group, and always felt anxious around others. We HSPs who are very out-going by nature can’t withdraw easily. We get lonely and long for the authentic and loving relationships we can forge when we manage our HSP trait well. Everyone has environments that feel good or bad to them. We all do best when our Adult builds a Wise Parent to support us in seeking ours. I think we who are different are like the canaries in the mining cave; our discomfort can warn the more comfortably wired people that it might be time to find a more sheltering branch too.

18. Be Assertive to Be Mentally Fit

18. Be Assertive to Be Mentally Fit

This picture shows that somebody wanted to create a unique statement at the beach. He or she thought about what to sculpt and carefully formed this octopus of damp sand. To make it more visible, the sculptor laid out seaweed to contrast with its arms. Now we can readily see this remarkable design. Social skills like assertiveness also require this kind of focus, caring and creative problem-solving. You just can’t fill a bucket with sand and dump it out. Your Adult needs to set goals, study what they’ll require and then work with your Child and Parent parts to develop and express your new skills.

In the early 1970s when I was in graduate school at the University of Iowa, the Women’s Movement rolled through. I sewed curtains for the new women’s center and then helped develop assertion training groups. These groups began because it was felt that, due to being treated as “less than” men, women lacked the skills and attitudes they needed to succeed in their work and enjoy healthy relationships.

You must be assertive to be mentally fit. Whether you’re a man or woman, you must be assertive to experience the social confidence and self-respect mental fitness brings. If not, others won’t fully open up to you because they can tell you’re not really open with them. Do you make a sarcastic joke at their expense? Do you pretend to be happy with them and then blow up occasionally? Do you vent your hurt and anger to others, thinking your comments won’t get back to the person you were afraid to confront? Do you usually withdraw and avoid real friendship because it’s just too hurtful and disappointing? In Claim Your Own Mental Fitness,  Chapter 1, Part III, Friendship Holds the Keys, I describe in detail how being assertive opens the door for you to enjoy trust and harmony in your relationships.

As the sand sculptor formed the octopus, you can create within you the skills to be assertive. Using the FORMULA, your Adult must tune in to your Child’s anxiety and, with your Wise Parent, convince your Child that it does not need to go into fight-or-flight if another person gets angry or even dumps you. Because early human survival depended on social cooperation, social rejection became a trigger for fight-or-flight. The first time I decided to confront a person I really depended on for friendship (at about age thirty-one), I felt nauseous, my heart raced and my brain felt like spaghetti.

Here’s how I prepared myself. First, I re-read sections of Manuel Smith’s book, When I Say No, I Feel Guilty, where his students offer dialogue examples of how to talk assertively, not aggressively. I practiced what I could say in several variations of how the conversation might go. Once I had that down, my Adult worked on my toxic beliefs. (#1) No, I don’t need this friend’s approval or even her friendship, I just want it, my body can stay out of it.(#3) This friend is kind and fair-minded, she probably won’t blame or punish me for asking her to respond to my concern. (#9) No, it’s not more comfortable to avoid this conversation and keep getting privately upset with her. Finally, it’s not a black-and-white, either-or thing, that she’ll either be fine with this or reject me totally. Just because I’m uncertain and anxious doesn’t mean I can’t take this non-life-threatening risk to improve our friendship.

It was still very scary for me to gently open the topic I needed to discuss, and my body was still in take-off mode. My friend and I easily came to an understanding and I was launched on my assertive path. Consider the things you already care for thoughtfully: your home, your appearance, your crafts, your family, your career skills. This same kind of attention and persistence will also bring you the assertiveness you need to be mentally fit and the deeply rewarding relationships it makes possible.

20. A Lantern for Your Candle

20. A Lantern for Your Candle

When you see what’s wrong and you try to make it right, you will be a point of light. Randy Travis

This line from Randy Travis always brings me to tears. But wishing don’t make it so. First you must construct a lantern for your candle. This spark of inspiration and faith in yourself, like all fire, needs containment and guidance to become Travis’ point of light. Mrs. Fixit would say that the candle represents the unique set of skills and talents you have to fuel this light and your Adult must experiment with how to keep it burning. The glass in a lantern protects your inspiration from the wind and rain along your journey, and allows it to keep lighting your way. The metal housing gives your candle a firm base to keep it steady and an access point for recharging your fuel. The handle allows you to hold it up where you need its luminance. You’ll construct your own unique lanterns as you go.

To claim your own mental fitness, you must have a grasp of just what you need to navigate in your life. The system I’ve been describing in this blog and in Claim Your Own Mental Fitness offers the means to construct this for yourself. Here’s a review of the key elements:

  • Child: the energy, talents and interests that constitute the raw material for your candle
  • Indulgent Parent: the unfettered permission to explore and express Child impulses in potentially scented and malleable wax-like form
  • Critical Parent: the limiting and shaping instrument that forms your candle
  • Wise Parent: balances these two, allowing a well-shaped and sturdy candle that’s not too brittle or too soft
  • Adult: monitors these as you go through your days, adjusting each and creating your Wise Parent as it revises the Toxic Beliefs of your Indulgent and Critical Parents. It trims your wick just right and makes sure your candle is ready for your journey into relationships and managing your daily life.

The skills your Adult needs to provide this guiding influence are contained in the FORMULA. Remember, it must Focus inward upon your Child and Parent parts, Observe what Toxic Beliefs might be triggering fight-or-flight and Revise these to calm your system and make the new versions available in your Wise Parent. Then your Adult must Monitor for any needed adjustments, continually Using your Child’s body-linked feedback that fight-or-flight has begun. Next your Adult must support your Child’s feelings of hope, confidence and strength by Lightening its day with fun, inspiring, healing and energizing experiences. This keeps your light shining brightly. Finally Your Adult must learn how to Apply this system when you interact with other people and when life stresses you in new ways that threaten to take you into overwhelming emotional darkness.

Three-year-olds don’t design lanterns. With their immature pre-frontal cortexes, they can’t monitor well or study how other people have found ways to become steady points of light. Gradually we develop the mental ability to do this, but we often get very poor guidance for how to build effective lanterns as we go through life. Expect to work hard for mental fitness. Even when you know how to work with your different mind aspects and practice the FORMULA, it’s still very hard to keep a steady march with your point of light through all the stressors you encounter.

Once you have your lantern, how can you “see what’s wrong and try to make it right?” Your Adult must be like Syd Mead’s robot “Number Five” in the 1986 film Short Circuit, open to and hungry for INPUT. Humans through all our history have struggled with the same issues facing you. They’ve written about what’s helped them, often brilliantly. Nowadays movies and other videos offer new avenues for study. To keep your Adult functioning well you must keep practicing the FORMULA and also become a life-long learner about mental fitness.

Study the Wise Parent guidance of others you respect to decide what you believe is right or wrong. Don’t be too proud or too lazy to explore what they have to offer if you want mental fitness. Your steady light can lead others to light their own candles and see what’s wrong, then try to make it right.

 

22. The Grief Process, Denial, Bargaining and Mental Fitness

22. The Grief Process, Denial, Bargaining and Mental Fitness

The graph above describes an intuitive view of the grief process, based on how much energy grief seems to require at each stage. The way energy flows in your process may be different, but what’s important is for your Adult to learn how to recognize the five stages as they happen. Grief can prevent mental fitness and the kind of joy that makes life a rich adventure. It sucks out the hope human beings need to keep engaging in life. Seeing grief in five stages allows your Adult to track your progress and observe when you’re moving forward, sliding back or getting stuck. Humans do seem to share this five-stage process while they grieve in their own way.

In this post we’ll look at the first two stages of this process and the next three in the following post. Toxic Beliefs create unrealistic expectations for what life brings you. You have a loss to grieve each time these aren’t met. The beliefs of your Critical Parent may cause you to lose confidence in yourself as well as others. For example, Belief #3 encourages you to set standards for yourself and others that may be unrealistic. Your Indulgent Parent embraces Belief #8, that happiness depends on what happens to you and other beliefs that make you expect more from  other people than you’ll receive and less from yourself. Each of these Parents sets you up to expect things that your Adult could recognize are unrealistic.

Denial and bargaining are the first stages of the grief process. They can happen outside of your awareness for just awhile or for years. In many cases Toxic Beliefs that interfere with your Adult functioning were somewhat valid when you were a child. If your parents had outgrown these, they might have offered role models for how to revise them as you grew up. If not, you’ll need to do this on your own, possibly with the support of wise, mature friends or a counselor. Your watchful Adult can learn to recognize their influence and help you face and heal your losses.  Your Wise Parent can become your Child’s reliable internal support, replacing your Critical and Indulgent Parents as it comforts you with revised beliefs. This support will allow your Child to tolerate the next stages of your grief process and reduce tendencies to revert back into previously visited stages.

Denial begins when your Child can’t believe or accept that what she counted on doesn’t happen. Perhaps your mother didn’t make you feel loved and Belief #1 that you must have the love of a significant person, haunts you years later with fight-or-flight reactions in close relationships. You need a way to grieve and heal this wound, but your Adult can’t tackle this problem as long as you deny its impact. Perhaps your father’s job helped reinforce his father’s embrace of Belief #3, that his standards must always be met, and he was unfairly critical of you and others. Maybe your grandmother’s Indulgent Parent encouraged you to feel like you deserve to feel sorry for yourself when things don’t go easily for you and you’re upset to be disappointed over and over again (Belief # 11 or # 12). As long as you deny or minimize these very painful facts (with or without awareness), your Adult can’t revise your beliefs, and you don’t build a Wise Parent to comfort you.

Bargaining happens when you use irrational strategies to maintain your denial. Belief # 1 could lead you to minimize what one parent did to hurt you, because you feel like you must have at least one parent who loved you when you were a child. As an adult, this belief might keep you from being assertive with a friend or partner as your Child trembles with the fear of losing him.   Belief #3 could make you try to pressure others to behave according to the standards you’ve learned and get very disappointed when they don’t. You might block out or lie about memories from the past if Belief # 5 leads you to fear that your past determines what your present life can be. This internal bargaining might delay loss of a friend or a job, but it may also set you up for more loss when you friend or associate loses respect for you and doesn’t want you around any longer.

You’ll note on the graph that these denial efforts do cost more energy than when you’ve resolved the grief process. If you remain in denial and bargaining, your Child’s sense of security remains lower and your Indulgent and Critical Parents respond with heightened signals for fight-or-flight. When a new loss occurs, your Adult will have less ability to sort out what’s going on as your feelings of fight-or-flight escalate. If your Adult can keep resolving your grief as events happen, you’ll be resilient for future disappointments, frustrations and trauma. This requires you to move out of denial and on to the next stages of grief, anger, sadness and acceptance.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Social anxiety is another common issue for HSPs. It is a chronic form of Personalization that can be isolating and very harmful. It’s the feeling that the people around you are always looking for ways to find fault with you. I remember feeling sick to my stomach as I sat among the 20 kids in my kindergarten class for most of the year. As a young teenager I’d easily be triggered into the same feeling when I had to cope with several kids. This problem was worsened because my family often enjoyed teasing me until I cried and ran away when we sat at the dinner table. They justified this by telling me, “The world’s a harsh place and we’re trying to help you stop being so sensitive.”*

Although most of my HSP clients weren’t tormented, social anxiety was prevalent for them. I was so miserable by age twelve that I began reading to find some answers. I received my first Bible and loved to read about the kindness that Jesus taught people to offer everyone. I read my dad’s copy of How to Win Friends and Influence People and discovered that people need you to focus on them and listen well. I journaled every night, noting whether I had done that. I was a lonely, intense and talkative kid, so this was difficult, but I learned to stop sharing much about myself with anyone but a couple friends and to listen well.

One fascinating thing I discovered during this self-improvement effort was how really focused on themselves most people (including me) are. It was such a relief to realize that I could be invisible to most people simply by not talking. As I shared these strategies with my HSP clients, I received the most surprised reactions when they tried this experiment: When you’re in a group of people you don’t know well, engage another person in light conversation (“small talk”) by asking about them, their family, their hobbies, their job, what they’ve done for fun lately. Encourage them to talk for a while and then add a very brief comment about yourself related to what they’ve been sharing. See how long it is before they look at their watch. My clients usually were skeptical, but would return and exclaim that they couldn’t believe how quickly others actually did that, and then moved on to talk with someone else. We agreed that those who actually kept interacting might be friend material, unless they were leading up to a marketing proposal.

When I worked for the Dale Carnegie classes in Chicago I was taught how to engage a boss to listen and sometimes make the choice to pay for an employee to take the classes that embodied what I’d read in his book when I was twelve. It brought me to tears to see how others were transformed in the fourteen-week, four-hours-a-night class. Gradually, I overcame most of my remaining social anxiety as I grew in my interpersonal skills and discovered that others’ responses really had almost nothing to do with me. I never became a great salesperson, but what I learned has meant so much more than money for the rest of my life.

Another problem HSPs have is that too often when they tell their doctors about their anxiety and how it cripples them, they’re offered addictive medication (like the valium I was prescribed and didn’t take).  Usually they aren’t clearly referred for counseling, where they could learn how to cope without this, even when the meds begin to cause serious problems. I’ve worked with HSPs addicted to these medications who went thru hell to get off of them because of their HSP sensitivity to these drugs.

*In Elaine Aron’s video, Sensitive, she describes how often family and friends may try this damaging approach with HSPs and provides a thorough description of what a “Highly Sensitive Person” is. It’s available for about $10.00 at her website, www.hsp.com .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

principle of human nature is the craving to be appreciated. (From the Dale Carnegie Course, 1976)

Here’s a new take on compassion and assertiveness! For a stronger Adult, a wiser Wise Parent and a more secure Child, consider the story of “Compassion, Assertiveness and the Pop-Bead Puppy.”

As I sat feeling exhausted in my doctor’s sunny waiting room, an older man holding a string of gold-colored pop-beads came over to me. He said “I want to give you something.” I was touched by his kind, gentle manner and invited him to sit next to me. Before retiring he’d traveled all around Louisiana working for Carpenter Tractors. Gradually he’d discovered that what he loved best to do was “put a smile on a someone’s face.” He said giving tiny pop-bead animals to people was his way to do that and he twisted the golden beads into a puppy for me.

I asked the Bead Man what he did when people got annoyed and treated him like he was trying to do something harmful to them. His face darkened and he said, “That’s bad.” After a moment he added, “but I know He (pointing upward as his face brightened) knows what I’m doing. I shared with him how I’d spent my life trying to find ways to do the same thing. I thanked him and as he left we laughed about how we both “just couldn’t get enough of those wonderful smiles.” This left me to ponder the issue of how humans react to what others offer them.

This gentle man felt really bad when people turned their eyes and hearts away from him as though he were panhandling for loose change. He wanted so much for people to give his gift a chance and could only keep going because he believed that a Higher Power recognized and appreciated him every time. Let’s consider what his motives might have been to perform this unusual behavior. Was he really panhandling for something else that would take from others much more than it gave? We’d call that self-serving and turn away. We could stay open to a friend who did that for a while, but not a stranger. Perhaps we’d fear that if we “gave him an inch, he’d take a mile,” and try to expand the contact into asking, say for a meal or a donation or more listening than we wanted to offer.

The Bead Man told me he just did this to see me smile. Why would he want to do that? He could be one of Elaine Aron’s HSP’s with “sensory processing sensitivity,” whose mirror neurons in their brain get more excited by smiles than the other 80% of the population, so he’d just be sharing what he loves. Chefs, artists, car dealers and most of the rest of us like to do that with others who enjoy the same things. They learn not to take rejection of their gifts as a rejection of themselves and to accept that what they offer may have limited appeal. Finally, he may have found this as a way to somehow transform grief from his life, like the mothers whose children were killed by drunk drivers joined to form MADD, with profoundly rooted zeal and determination to keep fewer children from dying this way.

When someone offers you a gift with an extra urgency that could make you suspicious and turn away, try staying open and allow your Adult to consider thoughtfully where this earnest person is really coming from. Unless there could actually be life-or-death consequences, let your Wise Parent assure your Child that your assertive Adult can set effective limits as needed. Remember that all of us want recognition and appreciation from each other, whatever our styles and the gifts we offer. You may find a kindred spirit along the way to brighten the path of your journey and soothe the pain we all find as we travel.

23. The Grief Process: Anger, Sadness and Acceptance

23. The Grief Process: Anger, Sadness and Acceptance

Dolly was a beautiful long-haired dachshund with a personality that we knew from the start would one day break our hearts. After almost eighteen years, that’s what happened. I must tell you about her. In this picture she’s still got the shorter coat of a puppy. She would tip her head as she looked at you and charm you to tears. She’d play under a sheet like a cat, on her back batting at your hand and rolling around as you tickled  her through the sheet. She would stand over our our chests and try to kiss us. She turned her head sideways so she could gently surround John’s nose with her jaw. She was two months old when we got her and the only other dog she tolerated was Henry, her Black and Tan older dachshund “brother.” We’d have to pick her up and restrain her to keep her from rushing to go for the throat of any dog we encountered. Henry loved to fetch a stick in a river or lake. She’d only do it a few times as if to show that she could.

You get the picture. We were in denial that we would lose her the last couple years and carefully dosed her with pain meds for her back pain. We even looked into back surgery for her (bargaining?). We weren’t angry over her death, but we were devastated with how it happened. Her back suddenly went into terrible pain and it was traumatic taking her, shivering and distraught, to be euthanized. John still cringes over seeing her go limp. I still feel pain in my chest when I think of her eleven years later. It was hard not to feel disloyal as though she could see me (continuing denial?), when two years later we adopted five-year old Dixie. John, who used to think he didn’t like dogs, is intensely bonded with Dixie and of course I love her unique, gentle and sweet temperament. Like Henry, she doesn’t know much about playing, just lots about love. Grief is a personal and unique journey for all of us. I’ll never lose all the pain of losing Dolly and I’m glad I still have that much of her left in my heart.

Continuing with this objective discussion of the grief process: Anger happens when you actually recognize what you’ve lost. You may have counted on someone to be there for you who wasn’t (Belief # 10). You may be very upset when others don’t share your standards for how to behave (Belief # 3). You may hate a person who gets the job you expected because of your many years of service (Belief #7). If you hadn’t worked hard for the promotion, you’d be angry because you expected special treatment (Belief # 11). You may be angry with yourself (guilty)  if you don’t get extremely upset over a loved one’s problems, even when you provide a lot of support (Belief # 6).

Your Adult can help reduce the intensity of your fight-or-flight reactions by challenging the beliefs that keep them fired up. As an adult you can handle more than your Critical and Indulgent Parents tell you in these Toxic Beliefs. Your Adult can look for your Child’s “I can’t stand it when…” and “this is unbearable,” in response to their influence. Adult self-management (mental fitness) can help you calm down and move into the next step of grief.

Sadness happens when you feel the effects of your loss. The previous stages of grief reduce this feeling and even protect you from it. The pressure of your Parents’ Toxic Beliefs can leave your Child very much afraid of knowing how s/he really feels. Our society’s general support for these Twelve Toxic Beliefs supports this fear. Clients I worked with who cried during doctor appointments often left with medication to suppress their grief. Especially for men, it’s still often considered a shameful weakness to be very sad for very long. Anger and denial are generally  better accepted for them.

Sadness is called trauma when it leads men and women soldiers to take their lives after what they’d experienced in war. People are traumatized when they are abused as children. Trauma victims may repress their memories for many years, shoving them aside without realizing it. Our human brain-body systems protect us as much as they can, from what they believe could cause life-threatening destabilization.

There’s a difference in the degree of wounding and pain between what is considered trauma and sadness. For both of these our society’s embrace of Toxic Beliefs makes resolving grief more difficult. People often won’t seek help when they need it. They may revisit denial, bargaining and especially anger for years as they fend off their (sometimes buried out of their awareness) fear of what sadness might do to them. However, grief can only be resolved when you complete the whole process. Connecting with people who have a strong Wise Parent, friends, a counselor or a support group can help your Adult when your Toxic Parent-Child interactions overwhelm you with fear. With the right support your Adult can gradually free you of these influences and build a Wise Parent to comfort you and soothe your sadness.

Finally, you could be ready to move into the last stage of grief that’s most often called acceptance. People all need to find their own understanding of how to resolve their grief each time they experience it. One client said she found adjusting to fit better for what she felt. This expressed for her the fact that acceptance doesn’t mean you have to decide that something was fair or just, but simply that it happened and it’s over. This is what’s possible when your Toxic Beliefs about your loss are revised into reality-based versions which are readily accessible from your Wise Parent. For some, especially those who have been traumatized, mind-body work is needed to reset their fight-or-flight sensitivity. Many can only resolve their grief when they turn their wounds into action to prevent similar pain for others. This is called transforming grief and will be discussed in future posts. For a more thorough discussion of the grief process, trauma resolution, and depression, see Claim Your Own Mental Fitness, Part II, chapters 4, 5 & 6.

 

 

24. Toxic Belief #9 Ignites Fight-or-Flight

24. Toxic Belief #9 Ignites Fight-or-Flight

Why do today what you can put off till tomorrow? A clear desk is the sign of a sick mind. A stitch in time saves nine. Research has shown that order in our surroundings reduces anxiety. You should be more responsible!

Full disclosure, this is a picture of my craft room/office today! The balance between my Critical and Indulgent Parents and my Wise Parent teeters on the edge when I get too involved in a project like completely revising my website. The stack of unfiled papers seems innocent until I can’t find a document I must have. The flurry of sticky notes, small tablets of ideas to consider and unfinished posts requires me to shuffle through them as I work. My hard copy files are mostly in chaos and I have pieces of craft projects stuck all around the room. But I keep focusing on getting this done and then I’ll take some time to put it in order again. Fortunately I can escape to more orderly rooms as needed.

Procrastination offers lots of opportunity for humor and it’s good to laugh at yourself when you notice that you’ve yet again sabotaged the quality of your efforts and your peace of mind. Belief # 9 states that it’s more comfortable to avoid than to face problems or responsibilities. When you realize how Belief #9 ignites fight-or-flight, you won’t be so amused. You’ll notice that the other Indulgent Parent beliefs depend on Belief # 9, and its power to encourage flight from problems you face. Your Adult should look for these other beliefs when your body signals that your Child’s anxiety has increased.

When you think of procrastination, you probably consider a project you resist doing or the time-crunch created because you put something off too long. But this toxic avoidance occurs far more widely than that. It happens whenever your Adult fails to manage your Child’s impulses to seek comfort right now. Without your Adult’s attention you may replace problem-solving behavior with activities that please your Child so much that you actually forget the reality you’re avoiding. These activities can become addictions which disable your Adult and allow neglect of your problems and responsibilities, sometimes for years. Claim Your Own Mental Fitness, Part II, Chapter 2 in my book offers insights about several addictions.

Because your fight-or-flight tendencies never disappear, your Adult must not take a vacation from managing them. The first step to prevent damaging avoidance is to recognize the influence of your Indulgent Parent quickly. Your Adult can observe that flight dominates when you first choose to avoid things; but then fight can take over if anyone tries to push your Child into facing your issues. Your Adult can’t take much time off, just like the baby-sitter for a three-year-old. People vary in how quickly their Child will get hooked on avoidant or just fun activities. But no one can trust a Child to cope with life on its own.

You can’t allow too much humor about this; keeping your Adult in charge is the key to mental fitness and the self-respect, self-confidence and relationship-satisfaction that it brings. In fact, your Wise Parent must reinforce Adult efforts to prevent your Child from luring you into too much indulgent behavior. Look up “procrastination” online to discover many wise people’s statements to build up your Wise Parent.

Gradually, your Wise Parent’s self-talk will overcome your Indulgent Parent’s influence and support your Adult as it reminds you that almost no problems are unbearable or life-threatening. They’re just boring, frustrating, annoying, embarrassing, unfair, inconvenient or temporarily overwhelming. No need for fight-or-flight, we’ve got this. It’s not more comfortable in the long run to avoid unpleasant realities. We’ve noted how Belief # 9 impedes the grief process when denial and anger prevent you from facing your sadness. It’s only a temporary solution promoted by your Indulgent Parent. Using the FORMULA, your Adult and Wise Parent together can gradually reassure your Child to the point that your Adult won’t have to work so hard to stay on task.

 

 

 

25. The Grief Process for Human Relationships

25. The Grief Process for Human Relationships

In my practice I saw many people struggle to manage fight-or-flight reactions in their work relationships. In these settings, since there were both friend- and livelihood-related issues at stake, their reactions were often intense and long-lasting. Sometimes they would get physically sick and often they felt trapped. They needed a bridge to take them over their grief either to adjust to their situation or cross over to another healthier one.

It was helpful for them to learn about the grief process in these situations and lower their stress levels. First we’d look at the first two stages, denial and bargaining, which usually occur without your awareness. At work when you encounter a person whose behavior hurts or frustrates you, you often can’t just walk away. First you assume that he actually could understand what you’re experiencing and help with the situation. When these efforts fail, instead of grasping that he, for some reason, can’t understand, you may deny this possibility. You struggle to reach him too long (bargaining) because you just don’t want to accept that this is true, especially when you must deal with him often. Then your supervisor might also use denial (knowing it or not) and insist that you cope anyway. Sound familiar?

You can maintain denial indefinitely as you suffer anxiety or frustration in these situations. Your Adult can reduce this tendency if it expects your flight into denial. As the graph above Post #24 suggests, denial doesn’t prevent stress, even though it temporarily suppresses intense fear, anger or sadness. When a manager in a work setting won’t engage his Adult to face that he has an employee whose dysfunction is serious, he diminishes the energy of his whole team. It’s hard to manage his own fight-or-flight reactions at the same time that he tries to interpret what’s going on with others. Effective managers can do this. Other managers often don’t know how to manage their own reactions and may also lack the Adult support from their own managers to take appropriate action. “Don’t make waves,” if you want to be promoted, is a formula for institutionalized denial.

After a while, it’s perfectly understandable that the third step in the grief process, anger, would emerge. First you get angry at the frustrating person for failing to understand, no matter what you try. You might even believe that he does understand, but is deliberately antagonizing you. Then you get angry at those who refuse to face the reality of his deficient functioning. You might even get angry with yourself because you can’t resolve what you’re expected to manage on your own. As I noted in Post #23, it’s possible to get stuck indefinitely in the angry stage of the grief process. This is especially damaging, because anger takes so much of your energy and harms your body with toxic surges of fight-or-flight chemicals. It can also lead to more stress and loss if you displace it into other relationships.

Therefore, I recommend that your Adult and Wise Parent help you move on to the fourth stage of the grief process which is sadness. It’s sad that this other person can’t walk in your shoes or find ways to cooperate with you. It’s sad that he may lack the brain functioning (because of his wiring and/or his experience) to use his Adult when he interacts with you. It’s sad that many supervisors don’t use their Adult capacity to manage properly. Sadness is less damaging than anger because it takes your mind and body closer to acceptance of the reality you face. You recognize it’s not within your power to change the situation and you may release your frustration through healing tears.

I haven’t seen people stay for long in pure sadness. They return to angry bargaining or move ahead to the fifth stage of grief, acceptance or adjustment. If you keep going back to “bang your head against a stone wall,” you’re likely to develop depression. With depression you fluctuate between anger and helpless sadness until you exhaust yourself. This can happen without your full awareness unless you keep your Adult alert to where you are in the grief process.

If you have a very toxic work situation it’s usually best for you to move on to another job, after you’ve tried for a reasonable time to cope. If you’re confused or overwhelmed, be sure to find a counselor or wise friend to help your Adult sort this out. Once you accept the sad reality of these non-mentally-fit associates, you can leave strategically, with dignity and less discomfort for yourself and your loved ones. It’s helpful to stop bargaining and getting angry with them. I told my clients how often I’d seen a simple change in work environment end the symptoms that had put them on medication, ruined their relationships or damaged their physical health. The Wise Parent phrase, if I don’t have the power to change a situation, I can’t have the responsibility is good to keep close at hand.

26. Human Bias Against Differences

26. Human Bias Against Differences

The previous post described how a worker might assume that a co-worker would see a situation the way he did and might have also believed that his managers would agree with and support him.  When these expectations weren’t met he might enter the grief process. We call it empathy when people do understand each other’s point of view and feelings. But it’s a mistake to assume that we or others can do this accurately.  It’s important for your Adult/Wise Parent team to know that your human nature is biased against differences. Then you can expect that it will take time and effort to get to know another person, before you assume anything about him. This will prevent a lot of disappointment and grief.

When your Adult can recognize your own biases against others who are different, it has a head start in your relationships. This knowledge alone can help reduce the power of your Toxic Beliefs. You’ve probably seen dogs or cats in fight-or-flight when they encounter an animal they consider different. When humans were evolving, it’s likely that offspring who couldn’t keep up were rarely protected at the expense of the tribe. Different tribes might have often been hostile and dangerous. Perhaps some of these might have been a human sub-species or otherwise look different in ways that were considered threatening. Because of how widespread human antagonism is toward those who seem different, it’s likely it had survival value sometime in our past.

Today we still see in our newspapers that fight-or-flight on a large scale happens between groups with differing religious beliefs, races, ancestors or tribes, customs, accents, gender identities, social status or amounts of wealth.  I’ve described how people with different brain wiring must struggle to make their way in the larger society.  Fitting in is close to a matter of life or death, to get a job, have a family or relax in your neighborhood. Young gay people and soldiers changed by war trauma often kill themselves because they can’t find a way to join in to our society.  Poverty causes other divisions. Some turn their backs on those less fortunate as they struggle to climb the ladder of success, with varying degrees of compassion or guilt. The poor may develop a culture of distrust after too many set-backs overwhelm them.

It can give you peace to have your Adult remain aware of this bias as you cope with others. Anxiety about whether someone accepts or rejects you comes from your Parent’s warning that it’s dangerous not to have their approval. If you’re different from another person in ways they can notice right away, their human bias will probably push them to keep their distance. In that case, your Adult can keep your Parent and Child out of fight-or-flight by reminding them that Belief #1, that you must have the approval of any particular person, is false. When your Adult can keep you open to accepting what the other person offers, it will be more possible for time together and gradual comfort with your differences.

It’s sobering and calming to recognize your own tendency to over-react to others’ differences. You’ll be less likely to embrace Belief #3, that you or others should meet some set of expectations or suffer blame and punishment. Your Adult can’t be alert enough for you to escape entirely this human bias against people who are different. You may be fine with racial differences, but not religious. You may be repulsed by a homeless person or offended when a person expresses a cultural difference. You may be tempted to condemn those who haven’t provided as well for themselves as you have, and shun them to enjoy the company of wealthier people in your gated community.

This bias against those who are in some way different from us is a reality of your human nature that you must avoid denying. You need to grieve it all the way through, and accept it that it exists for both yourself and others. Then you’ll be happiest when you can transform this disturbing trait into a life-long challenge to overcome its influence. Polarized attitudes can lose some of their heat when  you can have compassion instead of angry judgment for people who express this bias without realizing it. It’s a benefit of mental fitness to be able to help others discover this about themselves and re-set their relationships. You may have a future in the United Nations!

It’s time for humans to recognize this along with the other ancient wiring of our human nature. We need to live into our present, more evolved potential to solve human problems without automatic leaps into fight-or-flight over the differences between us.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

28. HSPs and Personalizing

28. HSPs and Personalizing

I just know where she’s coming from… 

Here’s another example of how being wired differently from others can affect you journey toward mental fitness. Elaine Aron observed that HSPs tend to “take things way too personally.” After working with hundreds of HSP clients (and myself) I can certainly vouch for what she says. Personalizing plagues most HSPs, requiring us to work hard not to jump into fight-or-flight so easily when we interact with others. We may assume that we can quickly and easily walk in another person’s sandals.

Since, according to Aron, about 20% of people have this trait, many of you who are following my blog will benefit from her video, Sensitivity. Aron describes some of the positive aspects of the HSP trait in her discussion, along with the problems we have and emphasizes that the world needs HSP’s compassion and concern for justice. She hopes that her video, Sensitive, will help HSPs overcome enough of our natural anxiety to allow us to endure social stress and contribute what we do have to offer. She hopes this video will help you eighty percenters to understand and support us as we work at this.

As with others whose brains are noticeably atypical, HSPs have to work harder throughout their lives to function well, especially socially. Attention to detail (even perfectionism) and being conscientious are HSP assets as well as liabilities, when our overactive Critical Parents step in with Beliefs #1 and #3. My HSP clients were usually very diligent about learning and using the FORMULA, which helped them engage better socially. I’ve found it helps HSPs to accept that others who seem less conscientious aren’t driven to perform well by anxiety like HSPs are wired to be. They usually aren’t slacking off to take advantage of an HSP or to frustrate her, as personalizing would have some HSPs believe.

You 80% who aren’t HSPs can relate to personalizing, since it’s probably wired into all of us. You may not be able to understand why HSPs get more intense about it and can’t let go of our Toxic Beliefs as easily as many of you can. Imagine how this excess reactivity could make common interactions worse for HSPs. One case might be where the other person’s intent is unclear. For example, your neighbor asks you once again to water her plants, but doesn’t offer to water yours. You take offense, “what am I, chopped liver?” If you assume he’s using you and get hurt or angry, you may be personalizing. You should then revise Belief #1, that you must have another person’s approval or respect, to calm yourself.

Then as soon as possible, it’s best to visit with her, and try to listen well, to learn how things are going with her. After that your Adult can decide whether just to ask for her to water your plants too,or find someone else, rather than letting your Critical Parent blame her(toxic belief #3) for not thinking about you enough. For an HSP, calming the quick fight-or-flight response to feeling disrespected or rejected, and avoiding an instant trip into blaming the other person can be harder.

Since going over to talk about it is fraught with anxiety, most HSPs will have more resistance to doing it. If An HSP does go over, he’ll struggle to set aside his hurt and anger and have trouble remaining open and positive with his neighbor. Later, whether he talks with her or not, an HSP is likely to review the situation many times before he can calm his fight-or-flight reactions. When the HSP doesn’t resolve it with his neighbor, he’s likely to carry anxiety and distrust toward her for a long time.

Another example is when someone is clearly rude, insulting and hostile toward you. Your Child might ask, “why shouldn’t I take that personally, she’s clearly going after me?” Before your Adult agrees to fight-or-flight, there’s a lot to consider. Does this person even know you very well? What possible brain issues does she have that have nothing to do with you (fatigue, being over-whelmed, weak capacity for empathy, alcohol, toxic beliefs)? How much energy do you want to spend in response, and would it make any difference? Once you ask these, your Adult will have the information for a good choice.

For an HSP this process will often be interrupted by an intense and body-involving sense of hurt, anger or fear in response to the person’s rude treatment, which he may assume has been intended to hurt him. His Wise Parent-Adult team needs to suggest why the rude person’s behavior that was directed at him may not have been primarily in response to him. But his Adult may have to work so hard to reduce his fight-or-flight reactions that it never has the chance to prevent him from full-blown embrace of Belief #3.

If you’re not an HSP or you’re an HSP who’s practiced coping better in these situations, chances are, you’ll decide simply to distance yourself without drawing more anger from your attacker, perhaps by saying “I’m sorry you’re so upset” or making an excuse to leave. This choice allows you to avoid fight-or-flight and the body trauma it creates. If you feel you must “set her straight,” your confused Parent-Child combo is probably overwhelming your Adult by personalizing. This choice would be like cutting back in on a driver who cut in front of you, with potentially traumatizing consequences. The Wise Parent phrase somebody has a problem here, but it’s not me could help your Adult stay in charge as it works on practicing the FORMULA to keep you calm.

Future posts will address how trauma contributes to making instant and intense fight-or-flight happen more often for both HSPs and non-HSPs. Research (see Elaine Aron’s hsperson.com website) has shown that HSPs are generally more vulnerable to childhood abuse and war trauma than non-HSPs. Those who have other brain challenges often struggle to keep their Adults in charge as well. If you have any of these it helps to discover just how they may interfere as you pursue mental fitness. Often you can learn work-arounds and help those who value you to relate with more understanding. Claim Your Own Mental Fitness, Part Two, Chapter One offers brief discussion of many of these with references to additional information about them.